Why i'm not a Christian?

Religion is important in our world. But we are not good enough at understanding religion. I try to understand religion sometimes and i admit it is hard. Lately i think i have understood something about christianity, or at least most protestant versions of christianity, that makes me unconfortable with it.

It is about what christians often call the "personal relationship" with God. A christians view of God is very intimate. Children praying to God, alone in the dark before going to bed. Many christians claim that they are "friends" with Jesus and that God answers their personal prayers. Salvation, personal salvation is the goal of protestant christianity.

But i don't want to have a personal relationship with God. I want to be intimate with my friends and my lovers, not with the creator of the universe. I want to have personal relationships within a social network of humans. I don't want salvation either if it ties me to a kind of morality i can't defend. I want God to guarantee that we live in a moral universe, nothing more, nothing less.

This raises an ethical question of what a moral universe should be like? What rules should we live by? Those are the really meaningful questions... if you ask me.

P.S The title of post is taken from a lecture held by the philosopher Bertrand Russel on March 6, 1927.